Thursday, June 4, 2009


quick note:

my love is here to stay

Take it or leave it, but never abuse it

My love never cease

It shines so bright within me thru God's grace

Whatever happens in life

I know I'll be shining

Because I know

My love is here to stay...

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Your Options

It sums up pretty much what I wanna say!!!!
Shout out to my dear friend and awesome designer/creator, Melody Ehsani!!!
Check out her hotness @!!
Also, her blog is sooo inspirational....

Remember, you are the company that you keep! People you spend the most time with are the reflection of who you really are inside whether you realize it or not. Our journey is to find and experience your true self. If you don't like what other people do to you.... you gotta be the change you wanna see in others.

Monday, May 18, 2009

turning point

The past few months, I have been going thru one of the hardest, heartbreaking and life changing events. I'm not going to get too personal on here... but let's just say... I was damaged pretty badly by someone I had trusted with all my heart other than God and my family. Heck, I don't really trust some of my family members and because of the nature of my job, I'm always extra careful with whom I trust. Some people would try to come in my life for ill intent and only wants to get something from me. So I'm not sorry that I had trusted that person because it was based on years of friendship and I'm not gonna blame that person nor myself for that matter. But this event has made me truly realized, only thing you can really trust is that God (or higher self or whatever name that you believe in... It's about the existance, not a name or form) really is in you and you are the only person in flesh that you can trust. I'm not being bitter nor negative. I'm not saying you cant trust anybody. You just have to have 100% trust in you to walk this life with other people on this planet. Trust really isn't something you earn. In actuality, we really can't blame on "trust" for any bad experiences because that really should be something you wouldnt question about in the first place. I know it's easier said than done. But think about it, if you trust yourself completely, you'd trust your intuition and you would not be blinded by others... whether you go with it or you walk away, you KNOW before you get yourself in too deep.

What I have experienced is definitely something occured by our intentions and feelings got "lost in translation" and it really is propriate for this blog. As you probably know by now, I'm pretty good at reading between the lines. As an interpreter, I've got to be. But yet, I was misled by this person's words and believed it when I've always known actions speak the truth louder and clearer than words. And that fact was thrown in my face in the most disrespectful way.

I am truly grateful for this experience and believe it or not for this person tho... because of it, I have learned more about spirituality, feelings, emotions, ego, thoughts, life and most of all myself. I've started to really see what I truly want, need and deserve without feeling any insecurities or fears. I am a good person and a good mother. I'm honest, loyal and alot of things that you would look for in friend and lover. And I know I have my flaws and make mistakes too. But what differs me from alot of people is that when I realize I was in wrong, I'd correct it, at least try to make it right in respect for those who were in the circumstances as soon as I can because I do care about people's feelings as same as mine. You see... I've realized that I really have zero tolerance for disrespectful acts towards my feelings. Because to me, feelings are most important element that can even change your reality. At the job, some people has disrespected me only because they thought I was "only an interpreter" and I started not to let it bother me anymore... people can think whatever they wanna think. I do what I do with a pride and I'm good at it. I know who those see that and respect me the way I deserve. I have respect for myself in the first place. And I cherish the feelings I get when I do what I do. Feelings uplift you and bring you more of that. It's not thoughts that manifest reality, it's the feelings you get from the thoughts manifest. I had to learn it the hard way... when I look back about the issues I'd had with that person, it rings a bell in so many ways, how I was reacting and how that person was reacting. Everything, what we both were afraid of the most, became real.

I had to acknowledge and get my pain off of my chest so I could really move on with my journey. From now on, nothing would get "lost in translation(and I'm not talking about language barrier)" because I know exactly what I want and who I am. I INTEND to hear and see exactly what it is whatever it is and be heard and seen exactly what I am and mean.

Whether that person is going to be back in my life in the future or not, I only let nature take care of it. And I don't even think this nor this blog would be acknowledged by that person, but I wanna dedicate this song because the 1st verse-chorus is exactly how I feel... You know funny thing is... I was assigned to work on the translation of this song and his album in the midst of my emotional struggle... the message from higher above is very powerful... so are feelings.

til next time... xoxo

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Heading to NY

WOW... I haven't been here for so long and truth to be told... I should be working on deadlines due today rather than writing a blog right now... :P Oh well... I needed a lil break. Can you blame me? Never heard of the writing can be a break from writing and translating... haha...I guess I can't escape from WRITING something!

I've been so swampted these days and a big part of the reason is I'm getting ready to head out to NY in 5 days. I'll be hustlin out there for I've mentioned before. So you can imagine the amount of work I have to do before heading out. It's been almost 12 years since I've been to the city. I can imagine ALOT has changed. I hope I'll get a chance to go see my old apartment there... it would be nice! I was told some of my favorite restaurants were closed a while back so I really don't know where to go.... NOW it's sounding like I'm gonna be there to chill... lol I'm just really excited to go back to the city... though I would NOT live there again! It gets TOO COLD for me. I can't deal with the cold and I'm gonna be there in Feburary? WOW what was I thinking? lol Anyway... I'm looking forward to meeting up with old friends there. I just hope I can see everybody. And I'm sure that the trip will be very productive.

I've got another big job to do while I'm in NY.... interviewing Ciara... I've known her for years and I am sooo happy and proud of her being so successful in such a short period of time. She was just a young girl from ATL when I first met her and look at her now. She has transformed herself into such a beautiful lady and a great entertainer. So many people often bad mouth about her singing and her talent. If you really seen her what she does and how she is about her career, you would never say anything but good things. She's one of VERY professional, passionate and driven minded business women in the industry as well. I can't wait to see her. Oh and I am NOT hooking you up with her (you know who you are! LOL)!!!

Got side track there... but what I've been reminded by getting ready for NY trip is that it's all about who you know. It really isn't about what you do and how successful you are in it. You know what they say "You are the company that you keep". You see yourself in those who you are with. And I don't wanna sound bragging but I've been so fortunate enough to get to know and to stay in touch with so many good and great people, I actually thought... wow... I'm awesome! lol It has been a great reminder that what I've been doing for years are really paying off and I have been doing it right. It really isn't about your title or/and the company you work for. It IS all about who you are. It goes the same with artists and musicians. It's not about which label you are with or/and who you have worked with(ie producers, songwriters, artists). It IS all about you and your God given gift. It gets unbelievably tough in the music industry a lot of times. Sometimes, it comes to the point where it makes you sick. But never stop believing in yourself. Always surround yourself with good people because they are who you are as well. I won't name them, but I've met so many artists who are good people and very talented but their staff and entourage are bringing dramas to the workplace and making the artists look bad. You and they have to remember that everything they do around the workplace represent YOU as well. It really doesnt matter how you look in magazines or on TV... Have you ever wondered why some artists never gotten a huge success but have longevity? People who has worked with love them and people around them. THAT is why.

WOW so much for a lil break... ok.. back to work. I'll try to keep you updated on NY trip.
Until then, stay safe!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

new goodies

It's official!!! ( ) is officially launched as beta version.

Create your own free internet radio station, browse tons of stations by who love music just like you and artists/producers/labels who are looking to connect with fans!

Please beta test the player and let us know what you think! I'm proud to be a part of this project, soon, I'll be making my worldwide debut as a music journalist to write reviews, interviews and so on as one of the features on

For artists and labels, you can start submitting your info or/and music(preferably a link) to:

I'm in the process of pondering my first article on there.... so if you wanna be the first to be featured, act now!


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Make the change within... THAT's HOW YOU DEAL! It's a new day!!!

Dwele, Obama has ARRIVED TODAY!!! Let's stop looking back or even considering about the past NOW! Such an AWESOME TRACK and LOOOOVING the video!!!
Thanks sdotross for the link ;)

Let's stand up and move forward to make the change in this world TODAY everybody!!!

A Thought On This Special Historical Day...

I really dont want to put out my complains in words, like I said before... I don't even want to have negative feelings towards anything right now. BUT... On this very historical day, when there's something has to put out there saying ENOUGH IS ENOUGH... only to hope to make a change for the better, I'd be glad to do so.

I was planning on watching cnn/facebook to witness Obama Inauguration LIVE... but I wasn't able to.
And I had to write the following message on the wall on their page.

"VERY dissapointing that when this cnn/facebook group's network states that its GLOBAL... does NOT allow Japan and probably several other countries to watch video. If you are not allowing viewers outside of the states to watch... you could at least warn us that in advance. I was very excited to watch this historical Inauguration LIVE... believing CHANGE is here...

The video is NOT downloadable... why do you need to limit who can watch such amazing moment! I know Obama is the president of the united states... but for him becoming the president has been a big hope for people around the world as well. One of the biggest outlet for jounalism such as CNN should recognize that fact. The mission of journalism is supposed to be reporting the truth to the WORLD... not just to an indivisual country.

Before speaking and expecting on how one president can change not just the states but the world, please seek what one powerful media such as CNN can do to support the change."

What do you guys think??

I'm actually glad that I wrote it on their wall... Because I was contacted by an American living in Japan saying he had the same problem... and while we were going back and forth texting each other, he found that allowed us to watch the coverage live. Bow to!! REALLY!!! true journalism!!!

I believe there's a difference between being "self-centered" and being "selfish". Being "self-centered" means that to allow your soul to BE as it truly is and do what it wants to do accordingly. On the other hand, being "selfish" means do whatever your mind tells you to do thinking its good for you despite of the fact that the selfish act may hurt other people while doing it and without knowing that it's actually hurting your soul as well. And when all the inventions and services that weve know today was supposed to exist as the proof and the result of the growth of our souls. But instead, so many things have been handled by "selfish" minds and acts, we consciously carry the thoughts of discriminating others to defend ourselves indivisually. And this incident with is one small but major example of twisted act for excluding others to prevend them to hinder ones' profits. Would such an act be acceptable in journalism? I say no. Would such an act be acceptable in our lives? I also say NO to that...

But really... it's not JUST about journalism... At the end of the day... you can NOT expect anybody else, even Obama, but yourself to make changes with the way things are in life and in the world. And honestly... I don't expect this note would make you change the way you feel or think... even though I would truly hope so... Because CHANGE has to come from within... YOU and ME... THAT is the first step. And I'm only putting this thought in writing thinking I would be honored and grateful if this would inspire ONE person in this world...

WE ALL, not only those who are in the states but also people around the world, feel and believe that this year is going to be the year of CHANGE. And Obama being the president of the US has inspired us to believe so. Most of us are speaking on it. So what do we need to do now? I believe you know exactly what you need to do. I truly pray that you do...

Monday, January 19, 2009

Just a quick spiritual note... where I'm at today

In the past few months, I have come to realize the truth of life... if you are a spiritual person, I believe you'd understand what I am about to say here.

We often say "why is this happening to me?" and start blaming ourselves or the ones who were involved in the circumstances... I used to do that... A LOT. And I admit, I still catch myself doing that more often than I would like... I tend to blame MYSELF more than anything or anybody... I used to try to let it go even when I didn't really forgive myself or/and the others in the process... saying "what's done is done... just move on". Even if I said to myself that I'd already forgiven... I'd never forgotten what had happened, which means I really didn't forgive anything, including the stuff I was not aware of but my sprit knew from my "past".

But now I know better. Everything that has happened in my life was the result of my thoughts. I made it happen without knowing that's what I was unconsicously doing. Because I let myself carry the thoughts based on fear and doubt. Basically I was scared to lose myself when thats exactly what I was doing to myself. If we start to learn to have our mind/thoughts all based on LOVE then none of unpleasant events would happen because there's not a single unpleasant thought in our mind. It took me this long to realize that simple truth of life... Ever since I realized that, I've started to shift my every thought into positive and pleasant way. After all that's what my SPRIT really wants to experience in this life. It is a hard process... cuz all of my life, I'd unconsciously let my ego control my thoughts... it had became a habit in a way... I still have some moments... but it has become clearer and becoming easier to control every time.

The first step is to believe that the spirit and the body(mind) is a total different existance. And what I need to focus on is my spirit and truly see what it longs to experience.

When I find myself caught up in the thoughts created by fear, doubt and ego... I say this out loud to remind myself that I AM the spirit within and not this physical body and mind.

"I am the Light, The Light of Love, The Light of Joy, The shining Light...
The universe(God) is the Light, The Light of Love, The Light of Joy, The shining Light...
The universe(God) and I are ONE... "

God doesnt WATCH OVER us... He IS already WITHIN us, our spirits.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Very Interesting Exercise

THIS is pretty interesting!!! I've tried it a few times and I got to spin this girl in both ways.
It's amazing to see how you can switch up which brain you wanna focus/use...

It is said....

uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies

uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
risk taking

Don't know how accurate this is... but it's fun right?

Friday, January 9, 2009

Day 2

I'm actually surprised at myself that I kept my word to write today... It's going to be good!! :)

Well... before going any further... I should write about myself. I have been an interpreter for artists, mainly R&B, Hip Hop and House artists, for almost 9 years. Basically, when they come to Japan for promotions, I become their voice. Lil' Mama put it perfectly... "I'm the voice of the young people, and Kana is the voice of Lil' Mama." Whenever they do interviews(and shopping too!)... I'm there to translate the questions from media and what they answer. I actually do not want to think it's translation, it really is interpretation. If you are multilingual, I think you know what I'm talking about... It is impossible to translate word by word... and you can't translate perfectly what they really mean without having the understanding of the person, the culture, the story behind it and so forth. I mean... you can't keep translating "ya know what I'm sayin?" every time they say it!!!

I've been fortunate to be able to work with so many big names... which I'll reveal whenever I have good stories to tell about them. If you think this is going to be another gossip blog... you don't wanna keep reading... I've been able to do this as a freelance because my mouth is pretty sealed when it comes to about the artists I work with. People believes in my credibility and I want to keep it that way. I'm here to share my thoughts, my experiences, my feelings, and great positive stories (or at least the ones have positive outcome and lessons to learn) of people I encounter with in my life.

I got side track a bit... Oh... so as an interpreter... I've met so many interesting people... some people got problem with communicating with other people, some are well-spoken, some are great actors.... have you ever seen people switch up real quick? One minute they were smiling and next thing you know... they are yawning... It is actually interesting to watch people like that sometimes... just sometimes. One thing I have to respect ALL the artists for is their passion. The passion for what they do whether it's for the love of music or the love of fame/money... in most cases...even it may not appear that way these days... its for the love of music. You can really feel the passion coming out from every word when you talk one on one. But at the end of the day... even tho it may sound cliche.... no matter what you do... you gotta have a passion for it. You can keep fronting... but people would see the true color sooner than later... especially in the entertainment business. You know what they say... "If you don't know how to love yourself, you won't know how to love anyone else." So... if you don't know how to entertain yourself, you won't know how to entertain anyone else.... It's actually relative to everything in life huh?

Wow... once I start writing I don't know when to stop... lol Why can't I say things plain and simple? I guess that's the nature of what I do as an interpreter... I always feel the needs to explain in details so everybody understands exactly what one is saying. That sounds like I'm too uptight! lol Well... I have to work on how to be concise. Any suggestions how to work on that?

Thursday, January 8, 2009


OK... It's 2009. I have a strong feeling that my life is gonna change in so many good ways. And in order to make sure it really happens, I know I have to do something I've never done before... yep... you guessed it... blogging... and get this... in English! lol What a big step huh? LOL Oh well!!! I really don't know why I haven't done it... well... I know why... cuz I'm lazy! I get caught up with everyday stuff.... being a single mom of a 8 year old and working in the entertainment industry in Japan... you can probably guess how swampted I could get every day and night. I'm actually so proud of myself that I started going back to the gym last summer after almost 10 years. I've started doing something just for myself... to feel good about myself. THAT was a huge step!! Hell, even for a couple hours a week... it feels damn good!! And I'm starting to look better and better so why not?

Anyway... so here I am... I just pray that I can keep this up. Even nobody reads... lol...
I'm sure my loved ones will come check it out from time to time! I hope so! (no... y'all better! haha) But I'm gonna try to write things that interest y'all tho... hey.. after all I AM a writer... Though I've never really written anything in English to publish... people outside of Japan has always asked me if they could read some of my work... and all I could say was.. "Well.... they are all in Japanese... :P"

Alright... it's good enough for the very first blog... I'll come back tomorrow and write more.
I will be sharing about my thoughts, my work, my life...and my everything.